Friday, February 22, 2013

Finding my Purpose

So what is my purpose?  I am taking a Disciple Bible Study class this year.  I have really enjoyed getting into the Bible, but keep waking up wondering what is God's Purpose for me.

Do I have purpose, certainly.  I am a wife, a mother, a daughter, a friend.  I have a loving husband, two wonderful daughters that I am extremely proud of, both of my parents (thankfully) are still alive and live close (but not too close), and have been working on several really great friendships the last year.

I am also a cancer survivor/patient.  I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer almost 10 years ago and was diagnosed with Metastatic Breast Cancer (MBC) about 2 1/2 years ago.  With the latest diagnosis, my physical abilities have been limited with the MBC in my bones. So as a cancer patient, I am re-evaluating my purpose, specifically God's purpose for me.

Having been studying the bible lately through the Disciples course, I am wondering what God has in store for me with the MBC diagnosis and the purpose that He has for me and those around me.  I try to stay positive and know that it is in God's hands, but I also recognize that I can't sit idly by and wait for a burning bush to speak to me.

So I am seeking out my burning bush.  I have found that I really don't have any hobbies.  So I am in search of a hobby that I can do with my limited mobility (i.e. hiking and camping are out of the question, but swimming is an option).  I like to read, but have been having issues with blurry vision lately, so that makes reading (and writing a blog) difficult.  Hopefully I have figured out the blurry vision problem and have a solution and that will change my outlook (pun intended).

So in seeking my burning bush, I am exploring different ideas, with the help of my husband, to give me some purpose.
1)Write a book - hmmmm - maybe, but that seems to be what EVERYBODY does, and will I have something more interesting than the latest book out there?
2)A pictorial book - this one has been nudging me lately, but I'm not a trained photographer.  The idea in my head is a little scary.  Would anyone be interested in it and would anyone want to participate and have their picture and story in the book.
3)A blog and perhaps consulting business for handicap accessible/friendly businesses.  This one strikes kind of close to home as I spent several weeks in a wheelchair, about a year using a walker and several months using a cane.  I still walk with a slight limp (some days more than others).  My husband and I have been disappointed with several businesses who do not really consider the ability to serve limited mobility people.  While others are very helpful.  I'm not talking about those that meet the ADA building requirements, but those that either choose to or choose not to serve limited mobility people.

These are some of the ideas floating around in my head.  Not sure yet if one of these is my burning bush or the bush is still out there waiting for me to find it.  But now, at least I am looking with eyes open to try and find it.

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