What is My Dream - or better yet, My Purpose

I keep hearing "You should write a book".  Most of my English teachers would laugh at that.  I wasn't a bad student, got mostly A's in English, but it just wasn't my thing.  Now that I don't have a full time job, I keep trying to figure out something to fill my time.  Do what you love, I hear.  Buy what is that.  I don't really have any hobbies, I'm not physically able to do some of the things I used to, due to metastatic breast cancer.  I have no idea how to figure out "what I love".  I love watching and reading mysteries.  In fact, I usually can figure out the "whodunnit" before anyone else in the family (which drives them crazy).  So the family says I should write mysteries.  I don't know the first thing about writing a mystery and I've never thought of myself as very creative.  I like puzzles - jigsaw puzzles, mysteries, any kind of puzzle.  How do you fill your time with that?  I never thought I had ADD before, but now that I have all this time on my hands, maybe I do.  The idea of sitting down all day and doing puzzles isn't appealing to me, I get bored too easily.  Obviously, that is not what is meant by do what you love.

My husband and I are partners (with 2 other relatives) in a business.  He loves what he does (most of the time) and I went along for the ride.  Now that I am reevaluating things, I do not love what I was doing.  In fact I found it to be very stressful (how many of you could work with your spouse and your mother in law for 6 plus years and still love what you do?).  I an a Certified Public Accountant by trade.  Honestly, that is very boring to me at this stage of my life.

So what do I WANT TO DO? My sister in law figured out what she wanted to be over the last 2 years.  She and her husband are now the proud owners of The Ant Street Inn.  A quaint boutique hotel in Brenham, Texas.  Some of the things that come along with being the boss she has had to adjust to, but overall I think she is enjoying it.

I have 2 kids, 1 of which will be going off to college this fall.  That will leave only 1 at home and she has an active social life. Between school and friends she stays very busy.  So I look to the future and realize that my kids will be going off to pursue their dreams, my husband is pursuing his dream, and I'm standing on the sidelines wondering what my dream is.  Or even if I have a dream.